A peak inside part one

ok this is a rare glimpse inside my mind. i don't do this often unless i feel like i need to.

ok, you all know i don't take myself too seriously, because quite frankly whats the point? however, through out my life i've been accused of being detached, aloof, not serious enough, and probably some have thought me uncaring. lol at least i'm aware of it all. but to dispell these thoughts, should they ever arise in your contact with me. you need to get inside my head. (its dangerous but worth it)

so instead of assuming you care enough i'll just go ahead and throw it out there. ok, lol wow just lost my train of thought....hang on.........arrgh this is soo annoying...shoot, well i'll start typin maybe it'll come back to me. anyways as far as the insensitive aloofness, i suppose that may come from the fact that i tend to jump from topic to topic, and the fact that when faced with trouble i get very very quiet. now, i jump from topic when a friend is hurting because i've found that laughter and distractions are often the best medicine. i see no real point to dwelling on whats saddening them, and often feel that if they want to talk about it they will. but until then i won't push it and would rather lift their spirits. now i get quiet because i tend to think A LOT. and when i think i don't tend to talk. so when i first hear serious news, i automatically shift into a thought mode. i don't need all the intricate details. so i go straight to thinkin about options of how to handle it all. i suppose thats where the misconception of being uncaring can come from too. *shrugs* like it matters. now i know that most of you already know this about me, but its something that i've felt i need to explain about myself.

shoot times runnin out on me, sooooooooooooo i'll write and post a continuation of this later on tonight. now please realize that even in this my seriousness only extends to the point of making myself clear and other than tryin to epxress myself this has nothing to do with anyone here.